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My Experience Being Called A Racist

Being a millennial East-German means growing up in an environment subdued by post-war guilt and depression. Back then, children inevitably learned about Hitler’s Nazi era at an early age—be it grandparents, school, or TV.



“We waged war. That’s why we pay reparations to Poland and even to countries which played no part in it. Hitler ruined this country. And he wasn’t even German, but Austrian!”



As teenagers, we visit the concentration camps and prisons. We smell the air and think, “They tortured jews here.” We don’t dare touch the walls. Even the loudest kids in class are quiet, not daring to disrupt a moment of this tour.



The atmosphere is heavy with, “We did this.” “My great-grandparents did this.” “Our nearest relatives who fought in the war were monsters.”



The horrors of the holocaust are instilled into German’s nervous systems by design. All our lives we learned to be responsible for something that wasn’t our fault. Something we must atone for.



Forever.



And we accept this, bow our head and shame, and promise, “Never again.”



And now I see that promise is full of shit.



The German government—like most others—allow Pro Palestine riots to destroy shops, universities and public safety for Jews. The head of the TU Berlin likes antisemitic tweets including swastika imagery and doesn’t get fired. Jews close their shops out of justified fear for their lives.



What do Israeli politics have to do with the Jews who live here, working to earn a living? This country that always welcomed them has now turned against them, the past completely forgotten.



And honestly? That was bound to happen. Because Germans didn’t learn to be ashamed for the sake of Jews, but for the sake of the globalist government. This deep-rooted shame allows us to be ATMs for the whole world. It’s allowed the Merkel regime to rule against the German populace. It’s allowing Jews to be threatened in academia right now.



Can you imagine the level of disillusionment in the country right now? Of betrayal? “What, so we’ve been taught to hate ourselves, but here the government is, spreading Hxmxs propaganda? What!?”


I’ve heard people say, “After this is over, no one can ever point the finger at us Germans again! Look at the USA! Their students want Israel and every Jew gone!”



The entire West has been brainwashed into the “white supremacy” narrative in one way or another. For the US, the slavery guilt was used. But slavery was not only abolished, but only a few percent of Americans even owned slaves.



But the modern German nation has been brainwashed into blaming ourselves for the barbaric murder of Jews in a war started by an embittered leftist painter.



There’s nothing just about any of this. It’s unacceptable.



Arabs enslaved Europeans, but you’re not hearing any European demanding repayment or revenge for that, do you?



Of course not. It’s ridiculous!



And yet most white people have a big layer of shame or guilt stored in their nervous system.



I realized this when a situationship friend accused me of racism. Why? Because I dared criticize the mass migration into Europe and relayed my unpleasant experiences with Middle Eastern men in public pools. Instead of listening, she tried to convince me that immigrants never cause problems and are an enrichment to white societies.



My nervous system freaked out. I nearly vomited. Not because she was blatantly dismissing my lived experience with her ideology, but because she called me racist.



And that after telling her about German culture and how there’s a heightened awareness about political correctness and walking on eggshells not to offend.



This confrontation was an earthquake in my body. Total trauma response.



A couple months (!) after, I put a boundary on her increasing wokeness and hatred for Israel, and she predictably broke off contact after projecting some more internalized white shame. How white people are responsible to be more sensitive and involved.



You know what I learned from this experience?



That not a single person on Earth deserves the power to call me names and wreak my inner stability.



There’s not a single insult on the planet which should be allowed to make me shrink. Make me small. Make me hide.



Never fucking again.


When we let words have such power, we betray truth. We betray our boundaries. We betray our full expression as a being on this planet.



That’s the opposite of service.



And the world doesn’t need that. The world needs more embodied people who are fully expressed on their path in life.



Isms and labels won’t come in our way.

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