On Patterns and Addictions

Many old patterns, addictions, and entertainments will fall away organically at some point of embodiment.

This is a natural part of the process. It’s also something the mind wants to have explained until you’ve experienced it yourself.

The more energy you add into your nervous system on a regular basis—breathwork, pssy stroking—the more you allow that energy to work on you. Your capacity expands. Old crusts get blown open or gently scraped. Your body integrates what it needs to integrate. All without your conscious input.

And things that aren’t true have no chance to stay.

They can’t. It just doesn’t work like that. You develop such an internal compass that the “No” will get so loud, you can’t ignore it.

Other times, what’s untrue falls away without you even doing much.

What remains is the truth. The truth can be complex. It can encompass “I don’t know.” Embodiment isn’t about the mind knowing everything and feeling safe.

But you’ll find that the things you once gripped onto in a desperation to numb out just… fall away. The pull will be gone. There’ll be a neutral, “No, thank you.” Been there, done that. Not again. Learned the lesson.

It won’t require force or discipline or any other mind-based operational system to prevent engaging with that thing again for kicks and adrenalizing.

It’ll just be a

No.