GRIME - A Journey Into Disgust

I've been working with disgust since early childhood.

I went from an emetophobic hypochondriac to a woman who can retch in public if necessary. I waded through the marshlands of shame and fell face-first into the shit more times than I can count. I faced my own hatred for my body. How much I feared her. My own heartbeat repulsed me, I was so deep underwater.

No one held my hand. No one was there to guide me. I navigated those swamplands alone at night, knowing no exit or escape route.

And I emerged covered in grime. I emerged free, to bring this medicine to the world and to you.

I reclaimed my own animalness. My own gnarly nature. In sickness and in health.

I unlocked myself. All the parts I learned to repress because of how ugly, base, and primal they are fill me with more pleasure than anything else. I found my way back home by fully approving of every physical sensation, every function my body has.

"But I don't like feeling gross!" Well, how can you expect to love your life when you're rejecting your very nature? I know you're feeling resistance. We're taught these parts of ourselves are wrong. But they will free you beyond your preferences.

This journey will confront you with your animal. There may be grief and anger. But ultimately, you will deepen your relationship to yourself which will allow for deeper intimacy with the people around you.

Because you know what's hot? A woman who has full approval of her body.

Her blood.

Her shit.

You will learn to see your body as an instrument of divine creation. You will unlearn the patterns of viewing yourself separate from your body, and from seeing it as an ornament.

GRIME is a 2-month journey.

We start in May.

You're responsible for your emotional reactions. If you feel any degree of emotional instability and you feel unable to hold yourself when you feel activation, then this experience might not be for you.

If you feel pulled, you can apply here: https://christinacer.wixsite.com/christina-cer/grime