The woman you see here had barely begun unwinding the chronic tension in her body, and the tightness is obvious in her.
She was so fucking done with everything.
She didn’t know where life might lead her.
She had no idea how life would catch her in the free fall.
She still doesn’t, but she’s learned what service means. Not service to her mind or her ego.
Service to her pssy.
To her power center.
To her physical opening in every moment.
At the time this picture was taken, I had no idea how to relate to the literal sun in my core, bursting white hot energy since adolescence. My nervous system couldn’t hold it. All I knew was to gather and dump it in daily orgsms.
Extracting energy for pleasure or stress relief and collapsing into unconsciousness right after.
I really pumped Her hard.
And She still provided me with the energy to commit to another way of relating to Her and to life.
She still supported me.
She still waited for my return.
See, the way we’re “taught” to relate to sxual energy is based on external approval and goals: constant orgsms, pleasing our partners, looking and behaving a certain way to be acceptable, not being too much or too little.
But your sxuality is yours. No one else’s.
It’s your responsibility to attune to Her, serve Her, and daily lovingly touch Her.
No partner can or should do that for you.
As a woman who’s had over 5000 orgsms because they come easily to me, let me tell you: they’re not the point.
When you’re focused on opening your whole body, when you’re not gripping and tight and squeezing your muscles to ‘just get over the edge already’, when you’re not in your mind to fantasize and dissociate from what your pssy actually needs, then orgsms become secondary.
Because you’re already open and present with your body.
Your nervous system has grown to hold all the sensations—when you focus on your body, you develop nuance and attention on what you’re actually feeling which is more intense than any gripping. You don’t need to blow energy out anymore. And when orgsm happens in that state, it’s not extractive. It just washes through the pipes.
I’ve even learned to redirect the orgsmic electricity into my body instead of letting my muscles shake it out. Keeping the energy in instead of dumping it.
When I do orgsm, I don’t fall asleep anymore after. It’s not pushing and extracting anymore.
And this is a long journey.
@perri_chase’s SXBMB practice taught me the nuances of my own energy, channeling it, expanding my capacity to hold sensation and intensity without collapse and dumping it.
Tonight, she’ll hold a workshop on pssy, uncovering behavioral patterns and how to work with them at 12 PM PST. This is a rare chance to directly work with Perri, so if any of this interests you, check her out!
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